I need to get out of my depression. I didn’t realize I was depressed until I had a dream, just now, where I ran into an old college classmate. She was telling me how depressed she was and I was just thinking “but your life is like mine”.

I just self-administered the IHQ-9 and it indicates me as having “severe depression”. So I need to get that figured out.

In the past I’ve taken medication for it, but I can’t seem to find any arrangement that allows me to take the medication continually. This really worries me. My life is a total failure including financially.

A family member has been helping me financially but it’s ruining their finances to do so.

probably to do more action, volunteer more(at homeless shelters, tree planting) and go to more protests

More psychedelics

I have a few, but the general theme of 2025 for me is “cultivation.” Ignoring personal life milestones as goals, my biggest areas of work will be to improve my fitness and start a training regimen (I know, typical lol), going vegan once and for all, accelerating my language learning journey, and finishing the 30 or so works left on my “essential Leftist theory” personal reading list I set out for myself, including Capital Volumes 1-3. I want to go into 2026 a more well-rounded individual that is more knowledgeable and broadly skilled.

Shoot an arrow vertically into the air and then catch it with my teeth

End the workaholic streak and get back to my hobbies, maybe even make new friends via hobbies

I have three goals:

• Lose weight
• Do at least three game jams
• Stay employed

Stretch goals

• Move into a nice rental house
• Get a new, better paying job
• Get laid
• Ship a game
• Survive the shitstorm that is 2025

This is the first time I’ve ever felt the coming year isn’t going to be great. In fact, I’d rather stay in this one if I could.

Stop using reddit. bunch of nazis.

Just survive, I’m moving late 2026 which will hopefully be a new beginning for me, until then I just gotta not die

Actually starting to learn music production. I’ve had this passion for so long yet laziness has prevented me from developing it.

Less YouTube

Improve on my art and grow more as an artist.

The Odin Project

If all goes to plan, I should be dead by the 2nd. So, that.

Survive in as close to my current situation as possible