Im also killing myself on the 25th lol. During my partner’s exam I’m going to my favorite bench, drinking a bunch of benzos and vodka, and then shooting myself. Ive had it planned for a while. Life isn’t worth living anymore. I have too many mental health issues and trauma and have been fighting too long and can’t imagine fighting for another 50 or 60 years.

I have thought about killing myself every day of my life since middle school and it is so freeing to have a solid plan and todo list of what I actually need to finish before I get to kill myself. I’ve tried before but I realize now I didn’t actually want it as much then. I finally feel calm. I’m finally ok with just being a statistic.

Women are you going out of the office and I can come by the office to see you

Work or government issued.

I hate my gender, hate my body. Wish I could flip a switch and be anything else but I’m too afraid of the stigma to transition.

But I recognize that society, the government, doctors, my family, see me as a boy. So I use he/him.

In my mind its they/he. Some sort of demiboy or non binary, idk. I don’t want gender. I feel trapped.

I saw this a while ago so some of it could be misremembering. But he commonly does tit-for-tat advertising where the throws money around and has people fake praise him and call him a genius and say his ideas are great and his chocolate tastes good.

So he did a collab with this other creator, had already filmed the other guys video and assumed he would get his ad and praise. So he brings out his chocolate and has the guy taste his and compare to others. The guy is honest and says his chocolate is too sweet, to this, not enough that. He says hershey or something is better.

The guy’s honest review in everything he does, his integrity, is more important than the tit-for-tat from one of the most powerful youtubers.

Jimmy’s demeanor changes when he realizes he isn’t getting his fake words and he cuts the guy off fast, glares at him, and moves on, and never worked with him again.

I have an oracle free tier vps that I run reverse proxy on and have certs for subdomains for a domain I got on cloudflare. Cloudflare dns points to the vps, apache server proxy on port 80/443. On the vps I also have tailscale and another tailscale on a server at home advertising routes.

So I have music.mydomain for subsonic and plex.mydomain and files.mydomain for nextcloud, etc.

Its normal https web traffic so weird ports dont need to be accessed or remembered.

Those come with malware so be careful. Even if you reinstall a fresh os you have no idea what the firmware is doing.